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A Road Towards Dependency in Christ

I’m walking down a road of dependency. Or better yet, a road of learning to trust in the Lord. 

And as disciples of Christ, these paths are critical for our growth.

I have learned in order to possess the highest caliber of a relationship with Christ, we will often have to travel down some very uncertain roads. Yet, we will always have a companion. A Holy companion.  One who has gone before us and knows the path we’ve embarked on incredibly well.

This morning as I was sipping on my hot tea and talking to Jesus, the Holy Spirit gently appeared and began to speak through an old devotion of mine. This is how it read:

I will not show you what is on the road ahead, but I will thoroughly equip you for the journey.”

“Hmm..that doesn’t seem fair”, I thought to myself.

Jesus and I talk everyday so in a bit of  frustration (and major lack of understanding on my part), I began to challenge this statement:

Lord, why wouldn’t you show me what’s on the road ahead? I just don’t understand that.

And the Holy Spirit began to speak on behalf of the Father:

Because I deeply love you. If you already know everything, why am I needed? Would you have real motivation to seek after Me if I divulged everything to you? Beloved, I know that in order for us to have the deepest relationship possible, I must keep some things thwarted from your understanding in order that you may seek Me. It keeps you dependent on Me and reiterates the truth that I am God and you are not. Dependency is wise and it is good. I am your companion, but I am also the One who directs your steps. The pathway isn’t unfamiliar to Me. Not only have I walked down the road before you, but I created it. I know it’s scenery and I know where it leads. You do not. This road is very unfamiliar to you but it is very familiar to Me. Trust in Me, beloved. Trust in Me.

His words pierced me straight to the core.

He then shared this scripture from Genesis 33:14 stating:

So let my Lord go on ahead of His servant, while I move along slowly at the pace of the droves (crowd of moving people or animals) before me and that of the children, until I come to my Lord in Seir.”

This is what I gained from His word today:

  • He faithfully goes before us
  • He places the droves (circumstances) in our path
  • He sets the pace for the journey
  • And He waits for us at the place in which He is leading us

It is literally all in His control.

I can’t push the droves out of my way and force myself to arrive at the Seir in my life.  As much as I’d like to do this, I would rob myself of the real purpose behind this process, which is to learn to fully depend on Him.

I want to encourage you this morning, beloved.

If the Lord is leading you to a different place in your life whether it is a relationship, a job, a physical move to a new place, a ministerial calling, a place of serving, or a deeper place of healing in your life. Please submit to His pace and surrender your desire and need to control your life on this road of dependency. Allow this season to cultivate a deeper trust in Him as you grow and mature as His dearly beloved.

“He is not afraid of bad news; his heart is firm, trusting in the Lord.” Psalm 112:7

“The Lord is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him.” Psalm 28:7

“And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.” Psalm 9:10

This is where I am today. And it’s not easy, but it is worth it.

He is faithful beyond what we can understand as faithfulness. He is for YOU. Trust in Him.

I am praying for you today, my friends.

Take heart and enjoy this road towards a deeper dependency in Him.

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Our post today will attempt to convey the lessons I learned in following the Lord’s voice by hosting the big celebration now known as the HDD Launch Event.

God told me He wanted a celebration, a time where His beloved would come together and be lavished with good things. He wanted to celebrate the writing and sharing of HDD’s 100th post. This couldn’t be just any celebration; it had to be excellent…as if King Jesus Himself would be walking through the event’s front doors as the evening’s honored guest. In fact, He (King Jesus) was the very reason why we were throwing the party, and it was for His glory alone.

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.” Colossians 3:23-24

“In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” Matthew 5:16

Leading up to the event, I struggled with how HDD could carry out this elegant, God-honoring celebration. One cool morning, while staring out at the city landscape and sipping some hot tea on my back patio, God suddenly began to speak: “Christy, don’t focus on money. Money isn’t an issue here. Approach each vendor as though the money is already in the bank account. You and Keith will not come out of pocket. I will faithfully provide all that you need.” After simmering on that revelation for a moment, I knew exactly where the Lord wanted to have His event.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6

Two days later, I approached that venue with confidence and signed a contract for the $3,000 event space. Within a few more weeks, God prompted me to reach out to a few influential benefactors to discuss the event, which yielded some amazingly high-quality items for the silent auction.  My faith was not only ignited, but burning brightly for the Lord. Every element of the event, including the performers, the corporate sponsors, the farm-to-table food, the delicious coffee, the stunning decor, the classy programs, the lighting, the sound, and the photographer, was done in excellence. And all was done by Him and for Him. It was truly an unforgettable evening. We may not have physically seen Jesus, but His presence was undoubtedly felt. As one guest declared, “I’ve never experienced anything like this before. It’s like a slice of utopia.”

Yet it was nothing like I had expected. Without even realizing it, I had built so many expectations around His promises to me. Surely I thought God wanted tons of people present at His event. Surely I thought the event was how He’d replenish the funds that we just forked out for His party. Surely I thought He would fulfill His promise to us through ticket sales, the silent auction, raffle items, and donations.

We just gave money (that He gave me) back to Him (the very person who owns it all), and here I was expecting Him to immediately repay me, as though I was lending Him (the Lord of all creation) money. Sounds shallow doesn’t it? In my mind, that would have been a huge success! God would get the glory, people would be encouraged and have fun, our bank account would be restored, and I would have obeyed His voice and grown closer to Him. It would be a win-win situation for everyone involved.

“Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.” Proverbs 19:21

But on the morning after the event, I was heartbroken, shocked, dumfounded, and left feeling utterly betrayed by God. As one of His beloved, how could this happen to me? My mind told me that even though we followed Him in obedience, He didn’t keep His end of the deal.

Today I want you to hear the rest of this story because I strongly sense some of you will go through similar circumstances in your own lives. You may walk out in faith and trust Him, but events may not transpire the way you expect. Brace yourself, beloved, and trust in Him for who He is, not for who you want Him to be. May you learn valuable lessons from my human error and lack of faith.

“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

When we are disappointed with God, it is not because He is unstable, unreliable, unfaithful, a liar, a confuser, or a betrayer. God is none of these things. His Word contradicts every single one of these adjectives. The problem is not Him; it’s us. Somewhere along the way, we assumed the story would unfold one way, but then it went another. So we pout, stomp our feet, cry, and get angry at God. Yet things are not always what they seem, beloved. God constantly whispers this into the depths of my spirit.

“But Jesus looked at them and said, ‘With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible’.” Matthew 19:26

Allow me to show you just how loving, brilliant, and radically faithful this God of ours is. For example, let’s say God did provide a huge flock of people (just as I was expecting) and lavished His Daily Dose with an overload of funds (as I had also expected). Do you know where my trust would have been? I would have claimed it was in the Lord, but let’s be real here. My heart wouldn’t have grown to trust the Lord more deeply because things would have turned out the way I expected; my trust would have continued to remain in money.

Ouch. For me, it’s difficult to accept that a trust in money has been in my heart, but it was. I was trusting in circumstances, my own understanding, and money more than I was in the Living God. Despite having lived as a missionary overseas (after leaving career and house) and following Him to bring light into the darkest of places, I still had some diabolical junk residing in my heart. How was I struggling with money once again?

You may find yourself in the same place. Our hearts have several layers, beloved. As we long for a deeper walk with Him, He inevitably digs deeper and deeper so that we can grow in the image of Christ.

“‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,’ declares the LORD.” Isaiah 55:8

What a beautiful, eternal gift I received simply because our wonderful Father saw the condition of my heart, heard my prayers, and withheld what I wanted (circumstances and money) so that my trust would be appropriately placed in Him. Do you see why this was such a valuable lesson?

Join me tomorrow as I openly share the amazing proof God has given me to show He’s been and will be faithful to what He promised His Daily Dose, along with seven simple (yet incredible) lessons I have learned by obeying Christ in the unfamiliar.

You can also read the “100th Post” shared live during the HDD Launch Event here: 100th Post: How Does God See Me?

Image provided by Keith Becker

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