“You are not defined by what you do, beloved, but by who you are. Be what you want to see in the world. Be someone that is remembered by their love and goodwill towards others.”
These are the very words the Father spoke into my heart just weeks before I plummeted into a deep pool of discouragement and discontent. In seeking the Lord to guide me in what to share with His beloved today, He brought me to an old journal. “Write from this,” He whispered into my heart, which made sense because many of the posts you read are a direct reflection of my time with God. Going through the pages, I landed on an entry that had never been shared on this site. Written in April of 2013, it reflects a time when I was really struggling to walk in obedience and faith.
At this time last year, that the Lord asked me to follow Him in starting this blog. “No problem,” I thought. Then He requested that I withdraw from my academic courses to invest in it completely, and I wasn’t so enthusiastic. In fact, I felt incredibly discouraged. Forfeiting my own agenda for the sake of His kingdom was not easy. But it is possible through the grace of Christ. And it definitely carries its’ rewards.
“But this command I gave them: ‘Obey my voice, and I will be your God, and you shall be my people. And walk in all the way that I command you, that it may be well with you’.”Jeremiah 7:23
Today, I want to encourage you with the very words God spoke to me one afternoon soon after His Daily Dose was started when I was feeling particularly hopeless and confused. My thoughts were screaming out, “you’re not qualified…you’re weak and ignorant…you didn’t quiet hear from the Lord correctly,” and I sense some of you are in this same position.
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Living a life of radical faith and obedience means that we may be asked to perform tasks for which we are under-qualified. When we are confronted with the resulting feelings of discomfort and inadequacy, we must depend on Jesus (which also evokes intimacy with Him). And He is guaranteed to receive the glory because He makes the impossible possible.
Just as He met my feelings of inadequacy, He will do the same for you, whoever you are. Whether you’re in a challenging Ph.D. program, starting your own company in faith, facing an impossible situation with no viable options, making a bold statement of faith in your workplace, or maybe even writing a book or blog like myself, I am confident you will find peace and comfort in what God shared with me.
Here are the words verbatim from my journal. This is what I heard the Lord speaking:
“Christy, this is your Father speaking. I intentionally choose those who are not qualified to do the task. Think about this. If someone is qualified and already knows what they’re doing, then it’s expected for them to perform the task. There is nothing superb about this: kinda like loving those who in return love you – it’s expected. But, loving your enemy is not expected. Doing good to those who hurt you is not expected. It’s radical. Just as it’s radical for Me to call you, Christy. You have no degree in Literature or Business, nor have you written formally in your entire career, yet I have called you to start a blog site (which you also know nothing about) and write daily for the public to see. Who then gets the glory from that?
Stop trying to earn a spot in all of this. No matter how much you write and how you improve the blog, I alone am still the One who has called you to this – I bring the people and I give the favor, the ideas, the encouragement, the discipline, and the growth. I am watching you to see how well you steward this in preparation for what’s to come. Please don’t think I’ve turned my head to more important things. I am watching to see how you respond. Christy, I know that you don’t know how to create graphics or a website or file a 501(c)(3). I have been with you all this time. There is no need to convince me. Be excited about this! Boast about Me – in the fact that you have no idea in what you’re doing, but I do! That we are doing this together! That you are dependent on Me!
Please, beloved, there is no need “to try” and earn the approval of others by striving to fit into this bloggers’ world or making excuses. Be confident in who you are. The reality is that I asked you to do this – all I want you to do is to be faithful with the little I entrust into your hands. You don’t have to force anything to happen. Christy, I don’t want you to use [a famous blogger’s] template. Do what you’re doing. Allow Me to guide the content and the image. Trust in Me. I have an overflowing amount of grace set aside for you. I’m expecting you to fall at times, but you’re growing. Let Me encourage you in this – You’ve done an exceptional job with what I have given you! Yes, you have made some mistakes, but you’re learning from them. Talk to Me about the book and the blog all the time. I want to be included. In fact, I need t be included because I’m your Director – giving you instructions on what works and what doesn’t. You’re still making the choices, but I have the knowledge where you don’t. Trust in My guidance beloved.”
May He alone receive the glory in your lives and your vocations. May His will be done as you include Him in your everyday decisions and trust Him even when it’s hard or seems to make no sense.
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